I have not blogged in a long time. I haven't had the energy to. The wedding on April 29th was picture perfect. The weather was amazing. It was a full moon. Everyone is still talking about how much fun they had. The honeymoon was more than anything I could have imagined. LOML and I hiked every day, explored the upper part of NC and the lower part of VA. I can't wait to disappear into the mountains with him again. It has been tough to try to get back into the swing of things at work. I am emotionally exhausted from the wedding and it's myriad emotions, the deep relaxation of the honeymoon, and then a week after getting back from the honeymoon, on a plane to my grandfather's funeral. I thoroughly enjoyed getting to see all my family. I was glad to get to speak at his funeral when I wasn't able to go to Grammy Lou's funeral. I got back Sunday, and turned around on Monday to start on the palliative care inpatient consult service. While I realize from a billing standpoint the attending can bill more if they are with me, but it also doesn't make me feel like I am actually ready for faculty if I have to have the attending with me on everything. Some attendings are better than others at allowing me to continue to run the conversation, but the particular one that I am with is not. She is well-meaning, but sometimes she cuts in while I'm still thinking about my next move. It makes me feel like I look like an idiot to the patient. I'm sure that's not the case. It probably doesn't help that I haven't emotionally recovered from the previous two weeks. I'm hoping I'll be in a better place mentally next week after a weekend off. Unfortunately, it is my last weekend off until I finish fellowship. Granted, then I have six weeks to get mentally ready for faculty. I'm excited and nervous for that time. For now, to make it through the next week and a half...
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